this is all a big rushing mess in my head.

I have BMAT papers to put in, I have the UKCAT to sit for, I have everything inside my course and outside applications and exams and headaches.
mr. skelt hasn't put in my reference, I didn't give mrs. beer the material for mine, lost my ucas password, found my ucas password, need to complete a cambridge overseas form.

why must life be so difficult?
excuse me as I go shoot myself.

mother is here, and is helping/hindering as best as she can.
I love her;
but sometimes, really, its hard for me too.
this is why I can't go back.

I shouldn't be here, I should be completing the rest of my chemistry syllabus, and my spanish after that, and my english after that, and my biology, and maths, and history.

life is so full of shoulds and woulds that sometimes, people don't consider the whys.